Self Evaluation
This brief has felt like I have been in a wave machine. I have had massive moments of still bobbing and then all of a sudden I have a massive push and surge forward. I entered this brief with a changed attitude when choosing my concept. My print module was a massive disappointment in so many ways. A massive part of the way I work is thinking up an interesting concept. I don't really like simple ideas even though I am constantly told that simple is best. However I went into this brief with that in mind and kept the attempts to be clever on the down low. I feel like this has resulted in a pretty boring brief response.
I dont think I stuck my claws in deep enough in the project. Iw as determined to to make myself unbearably stressed as it wasn't doing my any favours as it then erupted into my ppd progression and severely altered my feelings and confidence on where im going in life. by the end of print I felt severely rubbish at graphic design and my big ambitions were a joke. So I started this brief (after changing it once as it was drifting into something bad) with a concept that was fairly black and white. It had alot of information and a lot of imagery to play with. This meant I could start experimenting immediately.
I found it hard to storyboard. I find that I generate ideas at the strangest of moments and off of the strangest things. I found it hard to sit own and bounce the ideas off of one another. I found it a robotic process when its when you have to be at your most creative. I knew that it was a vital part to motion graphics and it was really important I made myself click with it and find the way it works for me, but I could never get my head around writing and drawing something out when it is completely solidified in my head. When I was doing it the idea never progressed onto something else and I often ended up repeating myself. I don't think I am very good at story boarding.
Another weak point of my working pattern is that I tend to research as I go. I like to think of an idea by myself and then go to find out more about it. I know this completely doesnt work and it only ends up in irrelevant imagery. I should be influenced by relevant things and the creative an idea around it that way. I started to do this as the project went along and intend to keep this up.
Another weak point would be that I didn't study the black and white rules of idents. I wouldnt have made the mistake and messed up the end of my title sequence for such a long time if I had done this. I need to learn that even though I might not like the ocntent of something-the structure of it can still be highly influential.
I do think that I have become alot more responsive to the some tat and some good idents etc on tv. I wasn't aware of it all before-how technical and time consuming it really is. It has raised a lot of questions in my head when watching the television of how something has happened which is always a great thing. The sheer fact of learning a new software has been another great stepping stone. This brief has been criticised at being int eh wrong place int he course-I think it was at a great time. After print I was deflated and had a real lack of confidence in my work. It hasn't completely recovered but it has reinstated the perspective of my stage in life. I am only 19 and in my second year at university. I want to be good and have alot of opportunities in front of me more than anything. I need to remember I am still only learning new software-let alone know what I am doing.
I really enjoyed making my packaging for this brief. It was a nice relief after working screen based for such a long time. I hope that this comes across. I think that all of my assets and imagery were appropriate for the brief as I tried to steer clear of using imagery that I want to take further into my career path because it is far from the media and way of working that I see myself in. I didn't want to draw any links between the way I am starting to work on independent briefs I set myself and briefs where I adapt my skills and experiment. That is to say that I sued imagery that I know I can play with and experiment with-without having pressure of making it look good in the direction I want to take in my career. Maybe this is a bad thing as I am not developing my development on different formats if that makes sense!
I do feel really self conscious in developing my work into something that it hasn't been before. I have been influenced a lot whilst I have been here-mostly by what I need to work like to get into where I want to be. I have found that I really enjoy this way of working but I feel I am constantly comparing myself to who is around me. I get myself so frightened of not being good enough and being average. In this sense-this brief hasn't been the best. I don't feel I have created something that stands out and has excelled something that I want to do. But I knew that motion graphics and Graphic design involving the presentation of clothes aren't going to meet much. Thats why I sued the imagery I did. I wanted to just have fun with the brief and not put too much pressure on myself to making it a definite relevant stepping stone to getting a job in something I love. I think I kept to this and don't feel as unmotivated as before.
To move on from this brief will involve me keep my calm like I have done and trying to not freak out that I haven't got a clear career path-Im still learning. I've had a plan all my life of where I want to go and I shouldn't be afraid if things come in that alter my confidence in myself or even just teach my something new-wheather I take something away from it or not.
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